Tuesday, November 10, 2015

First Kiss

Teddy O’Connor, I dreamed of you last night.
You were the age you would be now
and still handsome in your quiet way.
Remember us, in our Easter Sunday best,
beside my father’s mint green Chevrolet,
holding torch-shaped ice cream cones.

Ten years later, I’m wearing a prom dress.
You are Cary Grant in a rented tux.
You broke my heart that night,
being too attentive to another.

Somewhere between the Carvels
and senior prom, probably
when we were twelve, we paused
in a Long Island woods and
sat beside each other on a fallen tree.
You surprised me with a kiss
and I fell silent as a log.

In the dream, you said you live in Delaware.
I wonder how you are now.
The fool part of me is tempted to see
how many Theodore O’Connors
live in Wilmington but if I found you,
what could I say?

Teddy O’Connor, I dreamed of you last night.  

First Kiss is the title poem of my ebook collection of poems available at Amazon, Barnes & Noble, and Smashwords.

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Friday, October 30, 2015

My Halloween Story

Here is a short story I wrote several years ago. I think it has a Halloween feel to it. The story is called "Bette Luckington Eyes" and I hope you enjoy it.

Last Thursday at seven a.m. Bette Luckington woke up with the wrong eyes. She made this startling discovery looking in the bathroom mirror while sleepily flossing her teeth. Ordinarily, her eyes are blue, with powder pale lashes, and uneven margins (this last, the result of excessive use of eyeliner pencils). The eyes reflected in the mirror were brown, with dark lashes, and perfect margins. At first, Bette thought there might be something wrong with the bathroom lighting but as she continued to look into the mirror, she continued to see brown, definitely brown eyes. She grabbed the stand-alone magnifying mirror she used to tweeze her eyebrows and search for chin hairs. What she saw confirmed her earlier reflection. Filled with a true sense of terror, she checked to see if the rest of her was still her. The mole on her left check was there. Her tiny hands (her ex-husband rather unkindly called “mouse hands”) were also the same. The only things that were different were those brown eyes.
Strange things had been happening since Bette turned fifty. Her natural blond hair turned white, almost overnight, the way it often happens to characters in scary movies about ghosts. Her Russian Blue cat disappeared for two weeks then returned home with a flea-infested red tabby. Opening the front door to pick up her morning paper, Bette saw the silvery-coated descendant of the royal cats of the czars with a scruffy little street cat beside him, both standing there in that satisfied and expectant manner so common to felines. She took the striped stranger to the groomer, the vet, and her heart as the little cat was likeable. And there was that terrible business of finding a piece of a tooth in her English muffin. An ongoing mix of the wonderful and the horrid kept happening ever since her birthday. The change of her eyes, however, was the most bizarre and frightening occurrence of all. Bette brushed her teeth vigorously as if having an exceptionally clean mouth might somehow clarify her thoughts. She then brushed her short white hair that she had quite recently begun to like. The soft white accentuated her blue eyes. Well, it had. Bette analyzed her eyes again and tried to find some reasonable explanation. Abandoning logic, her thoughts changed direction. Perhaps there really is a parallel universe and at this very moment one of its inhabitants, a dark-complected brunette, sat before her own magnifying mirror looking into Bette Luckington’s blue eyes.
Still wearing her bathrobe, Bette measured coffee into a filter and remembered the documentary she had watched on public television the night before about the horrific treatment of Latinos by whites in America. Not long ago, she watched a documentary about the horrific treatment of blacks by whites in America. Both of these documentaries had been preceded by other similar ones presenting the horrific treatment of Asians and Native American Indians by whites. There were shining exceptions to racism and bigotry, champions of social justice in the white community, notably Abe Lincoln and Bobby Kennedy. While she herself was not a racist, it was also true that except for Granny Luckington’s Jamaican companion, Bette did not know a single person of color. She did have two Catholic friends but, of course, that is not the same. The accumulated effect of the documentaries made Bette feel deeply ashamed of the way so many people of color in this country have been treated by so many of its white citizens. For a moment, Bette wished she was not a fair-faced, Anglo-American. She wished she was a person of color – any color but white. Could this ephemeral wish have had something to do with the bizarre eye change? Had Bette become a human and modified version of The Velveteen Rabbit? Had wanting something so made it happen? And was it happening by degrees? Would Bette Luckington wake tomorrow morning to find she had become a middle-aged version of one of the Sharks in West Side Story? Perhaps there was nothing supernatural at all going on. Perhaps the change in eye color and lash length had a physiological explanation. Who knows what unspecified chemicals are sprayed on those shiny supermarket fruits and vegetables.
Much of the day was spent staring at her eyes in an antique hand mirror, drinking Chablis, and wondering how she would explain her new eyes to family and friends. She did not have many friends so that did not seem too intimidating a prospect. And, as she did freelance editing at home, there were no officemates to be concerned about. She could say she was wearing colored contact lenses, the way models and actresses do. Or, she could wear her tinted, designer eyeglasses all the time though this might make her appear to have a drug addiction. Bette realized she would have to find a new ophthalmologist and this fact made here a little sad as Dr. Kovic, her present ophthalmologist was a nice man. Every ophthalmologist she had ever gone to seemed caring and nice. If the eyes really are “the mirror of the soul,” it was possible all that intense soul-gazing into the eyes of their patients gentled their spirits. Dr. Kovic was from one of those countries in Eastern Europe that have no vowels in their name. At the end of each office visit, he was in the habit of asking, “Are you pleased?” It seemed an odd query between a doctor and patient but Bette knew English was not his first language and thought he may have confused the wording with “Goodbye” or “Have a nice day.” In any event, she would miss him and his concern. If she stayed Dr. Kovic’s patient it was possible he would write a brilliant article for a prominent medical journal about her new eyes and become world renowned. She imagined him in a large amphitheater filled with his peers. He looked somewhat proud as he introduced her to the gathering. She wondered what she would wear for such an occasion. No, this would not work for her. Best to simply go to a new ophthalmologist.
Before the eye incident, Bette started reading Seneca’s “On Tranquility of Mind.” Earlier that week she reread Plato’s Doctrine of the Two Worlds. This is the kind of reading she enjoyed and may well have contributed to her small number of friends. She considered resuming reading but the combination of wine and anxiety made focusing on stoicism undoable. By evening, nervous, somewhat sozzled, and too exhausted to continue worrying, she fell asleep on her large and comfortable sofa.
In the morning, to Bette’s immense relief, she was still herself except for those dark eyes. She also experienced one of those unexpected epiphanies menopausal women are prone to. A vision of an enormous and beautiful mandala composed of variations of Bette’s three favorite colors – green, yellow, and blue appeared. This circle of vibrant colors was followed by the following maxim in elegant, silver script floating before her. “Once you eliminate the impossible, whatever remains, no matter how improbable, must be the truth.”   Arthur Conan Doyle   Bette had no idea what any of this actually meant but she did feel a sudden and genuine sense of well-being.
After breakfast, Bette decided to do a quick review of her life, much like a computer scan for viruses, in order to find something in her past that might connect to her very peculiar present circumstance. There was her happy childhood as a pampered and cherished only child. She had singing lessons, piano lessons, riding lessons – her favorite pony was a Chestnut Welsh pony inexplicably named Scooter. Memories of her college years were rather blurry as they seemed to have been spent studying for exams, smoking marijuana, and having a crush on her philosophy professor. Soon after graduating from college, her unhappy marriage to Frederick Penn began. The longer she was married to Frederick, the less she ate. Her loss of appetite became so extreme that eating a whole slice of toast was out of the question; she could manage half a granola bar but just barely. The day their divorce decree was finalized, Bette celebrated in a nearby restaurant by enjoying a filet mignon, baked potato, and asparagus, accompanied by a lovely cabernet and, for dessert, two slices of lemon meringue pie. Dear Scooter, philosophy class, and Frederick? Finding no clues in her past, she decided to resume reading Seneca. When, out of habit, she put on her reading glasses, she was surprised at the thick blurriness she saw and removed the eyeglasses to find she could read without them. She fell into her usual routine of pleasure reading in the morning and doing several hours of editing after lunch, the reading, eating, and editing interrupted by frequent eye checks in her compact mirror. Saturday passed in much the same partially pleasant and partially concerned way. Late afternoon, looking in the living room wall mirror to adjust a stray strand of hair Bette noticed how the soft white accentuated her brown eyes. It was at that moment the phone rang.
“Elizabeth dear, is that you?”
“Yes mother, who else would it be?”
“Well, you don’t sound like you. Your voice sounds so different. For a second I thought I had the wrong number.”

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Singing Magic Review

Thank you Steve Ullom for this lovely review of the paperback edition of my poetry Singing Magic. Praise from a fellow poet means a great deal. You can read the review by clicking here.

Monday, September 28, 2015

Spooky & Kooky & Surreal Stories

Available at Amazon
This collection by my friend Carla Sarett is a delight from the first story, “My Name on It,” where a conference room is described as smelling “like dead roses and coffee” to the last story in which an academic learns from his pupils. In the other stories you will meet a robot cat, a scarily too trusting woman, a real cat who appreciates classical music, young lovers, middle-aged lovers, and an eight year old boy. The boy appears in “Stranger in Paradise,” my favorite story in the collection. In this exquisitely crafted short story the author describes the little boy wearing a Spider-Man costume as follows: “His suit was neon red, and he glowed in the dark, like a tiny supernatural being, with twinkling stars behind him.” Spooky & Kooky Tales is perfect for mystery lovers, cat lovers, and anyone who enjoys short stories imbued with intelligence, wit, and surprise.